It's the end of another year and no matter how many of you are tired of seeing the "new year, new me" statuses (which I actually see more complaints about than I do statuses), it's one of the times we reflect on the past twelve months. We think about the good things that have happened to us over the year and the things we have achieved but equally we think about the bad things and the bad choices we've made.
I can honestly say that this year has been one of the worst ever. I've done some amazing things and I've been incredibly lucky to have seen so much of the world, all whilst graduating with a 2:1 Law Degree from Durham University and progressing more than ever with my blog. I'm so grateful and I've worked damn hard for everything I've achieved this year but on the whole, I've made some pretty bad decisions and I've been incredibly unhappy. I've had some really tough times, especially over the past few months and as I'm not one to shout about my problems, I haven't really spoken about it on social media and it's made me realise that things may not always be how they appear online. I look at beautiful bloggers and influencers on Instagram and absolutely envy them, their perfect lives, their relationships and their travels but we never know the realities of what people are going through and they are under no obligation to tell us either. I haven't shared any of my personal life on social media and I'll be honest and say that I've found it difficult, especially considering that social media and having an online presence is such a huge part of my life. I feel like my channels have suffered, my content has suffered and my work has suffered and looking back on the year, particularly the latter half, I just wish I'd done things for me earlier and that's what I've decided 2017 is going to be all about.
I've realised that sometimes you have to be selfish. We always talk about selfishness as if it's a bad trait, as if it's one of the worst things you can be and in some circumstances I would agree. However, recently I've felt that I haven't been selfish enough and my happiness has been compromised because of it. I want 2017 to be my year, the year in which I seize opportunities that come my way instead of worrying about other people and holding myself back. I want to better myself and most of all I want to leave behind a lot of the shit I've put up with in 2016 and stop being so bloody hard on myself. Being selfish isn't necessarily a bad thing and actually not being selfish enough can be bad for you, as I've learned. I know a lot of people have had a really shitty 2016 and here's to hoping that we can all better ourselves in one way or another next year - there are better things on the way, we just have to get out there and get them for ourselves.
I want 2017 to be my year and that's going to take some effort. I'm not going to sit around and mope and wait for good things to happen to me. I'm going to get out there, face my fears and try and get them. I'm going to stop feeling sorry for myself and do what I do best which is work my lil ass off and be sassy. 2016 is going down as one of the worst years in history on a personal level for many of us as well as on an international level (but let's not get into that right now!) and we need to make the effort to get 2017 to make up for it.
PLANT YOUR OWN GARDEN INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO BRING YOU FLOWERS.
What do you want from 2017?